“Faith has now to be regarded as the revelation to us of the meaning of life, the understanding of life, the effects of life. I shall never become interested in religion until I have come to see that I must make it personal to myself—chew it, digest it, form out of it the sinews of my spiritual being.” —Father Bede Jarrett
“While still more people gathered in the crowd, Jesus said to them, ‘This generation is an evil generation; it seeks a sign, but no sign will be given it, except the sign of Jonah. Just as Jonah became a sign to the Ninevites, so will the Son of Man be to this generation.” —Luke 11:29–30
How tempting it is sometimes to wish that God would send us a giant, flashing sign—to guide us, to reassure us, to help us understand, to make it easy for us to walk along the way He wants us to follow. But we can’t expect to have our faith spoon-fed to us. Jesus wants us to choose faith for ourselves, to pursue Him of our own accord. The world is not a simple, straightforward place, and we can’t expect simple, straightforward answers to our deepest questions, the ones that keep us awake at night. Our lives—our very existence—will only make sense through the eyes of faith, but we can’t take a shortcut to get there. We can’t expect a simple answer that will instantly bring our complex hearts to understanding. We have to seek Him first, to develop a relationship with Him, in order to even begin to comprehend the truth of His love for us. We must surrender our pride, our impatience, our need for control. The answers will come in His time, and we can trust that He won’t let us down.
Don’t seek a sign. Seek Him. He will be able to guide you through whatever may come, and when you draw close to Him, you will be able to put aside all your questions and worries to simply rest in His love.